I was driving home last night and a new song by Meghan Trainor came on the radio called, “Like I’m Gonna Lose You.” It’s a really sweet love song about not taking people that you love for granted because none of us knows what tomorrow will bring. As I drove, listening to the lyrics, I couldn’t wait to get home to Nick and the safety of his arms. John Legend also sings on the track, and it was the lyrics he sang that really touched my heart and made me want to take a hold of Nick and everyone else that I love most, wrap us all up in one big hug and never let go.
“In the blink of an eye
Just a whisper of smoke
You could lose everything
The truth is you never know
So I’ll kiss you longer baby
Any chance that I get
I’ll make the most of the minutes
And love with no regrets
Let’s take our time to say what we want
Here’s what we got before it’s all gone
‘Cause no, we’re not promised tomorrow”
When I got home I ran straight into the house, took Nick by the hand and held onto him for dear life as we danced and listened to the song together. I squeezed him tight and made the most of those few minutes before we went about our evening, working on our book.
Then this morning, I received a text from Nick that a former industry colleague of ours suddenly passed away. He was just around 50 years old and had two small children about the same ages as my two step-children. I felt my heart immediately sink with the weight of his wife, children, family and friends’ grief. While I haven’t talked to this former colleague in a long time, I remember him fondly, especially because of how he spoke about his wife and children. He loved them with his whole heart, and you only needed to ask about their well-being and you could not only hear his face light up through the phone, but you could feel it.
We don’t know what the next second, next minute or next day will bring, so love hard in this moment and in every moment that you can. I’ll always remember my colleague for the love he had for his family and I will do all that I can today and all the days ahead in the hopes that I will be remembered in the same way. I will never regret taking an extra second or two in every moment possible to kiss Nick a little longer, hold my step-children a little tighter and do all that I can so my family and friends know they are loved. My heart is big enough and my love is strong enough for anyone and everyone who chooses to be a part of it and I am grateful for each day that I get to share it.
Rest in peace, Brett, and may your love stay in the hearts of your family forever.